Fuck. Emo emo day today. Its the 26th of march today, supposedly me & marcus`s 2 years anniversary.. but.. sigh ! I msged him at 12 am last night, telling him tht today would be the start and end of everything, and when i say end, i mean he goes his way, i go my way.

From the day we broke up until now, i was quietly waiting for him @ one side, bt i didnt want him to know i cared about what he was doing. I missed him but i controlled myself by not smsing him or calling him. Soon, he called me, talked bout our past, which made me smile, to know that he still thinks of our sweet past. He told me i was a good girl & whoever tht gets me as his gf would be a really lucky guy. I pondered about this, if he says tht whoever gets to be my bf would be lucky, why didnt he wanna be tht lucky one? He asked me if i was happier now, i said being single has its own happiness and having a BF has its own happiness, and i asked him if he was happy now and he said no. Why no? I really wonder why. I really dont understand why is it that whenever i call him when he`s with his gf, he talks to me like fcuk, but whenever he is at home or w/o her, he would talk to me about our past & make my heart go all soft. Is it because im single now thats why he dont feel how it feels like to see the one you love loving someone else? I know that in the future, if i ever get another guy, he would never be able to replace marcus deep down in my heart. Hais..

Boy, there are times when i look into your eyes, i see the love that we share, i see the joy inside.But i didnt see the feelings you hide and now you`re saying goodbye because your love is done. Im really throughly disappointed in you boy. Really really disappointed.